Blog van Kathleen

Twilight

poisonous_death — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 11:50:51 UT

Most movies haven't really got an impact on me
It's just like "ok. good movie. the end."

But I went to see Twilight yesterday...
It knocked me out and and rendered me speechless
It was kind of hypnotising and dreamy
and for some reason the beauty of it all struck me

I hardly ever had that feeling before

It was weird and I don't know where it came from and why I had it

xxx kath

suicide

poisonous_death — Mon, 26 Nov 2007 18:27:36 UT

One more laceration
for the colour of the lost
Cold blood
is what the knife aims for
Cold skin
is what de mind's after

Jack off Jill - Angels fuck and devils kiss

poisonous_death — Sun, 25 Nov 2007 16:16:36 UT

I woke up, morning
I woke up dead today
I aged a thousand years or more
I flinch when you are nice
You kill me with a single word
When angels fuck and devils kiss, I'm sure

I'll bask in your forever
You just waste my time
I want to drag you down, down with me
I wanted to help, to help destroy the world
I wanted to be that, to be that special girl

Everybody's got a little something to hide, but me
Everybody's got a little someone to crush, but me
I'm living in a human teenage mediocrity
Everybody's got a little someone to trust, but me

I dreamed that I was you
I dreamed your ego died
Said who loves you more than I do
I know you lied

I'll bask in your forever
Fucking waste of time
Angels fuck and devils screw

I wanted to heal me and then destroy the world
Piss in your heart and be that, and be that special girl

Everybody's got a little something to hide, but me
Everybody's got a little someone to crush, but me
I'm living in a teenage negative mediocrity
Everybody's got a little someone to trust, but me

But me, but you
Not me
Hate you
Love me, love me, hate you
Want me, fuck you, hate me
Kill you
Fuck me, like you, want me
Like you want you fuck you
Fuck me, fuck you, fuck you fuck you fuck me
Fuck you, fuck me, fuck you fuck you fuck me (you never loved me)
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you fuck you fuck me

I will never make it better
I will never make it better
It will always hurt you fucking asshole

silence

poisonous_death — Sat, 24 Nov 2007 19:53:15 UT

How much longer can I take this silence?
You just don't give a fuck
I'm not your fucking puppet
you can't decide when to play with me
and when to put me aside
Take me or leave me
Decide
Now

just a simple question

poisonous_death — Tue, 20 Nov 2007 16:09:12 UT

it's just a simple question
but so hard to answer
jealousy from both sides
but none from mine
what did you say?

1000 good intentions we had

poisonous_death — Mon, 19 Nov 2007 16:16:12 UT

it's all the same thing
now that it ever was
except now you've strayed too far
need you to stop digging your hole
and follow the path we light

don't need an invitation to be reconciled
'cause these home fires are burning
stare into your empty eyes and wonder...

"how could something so right turn out so wrong?"
you spent your time making excuse
for the ways of life that you are choosing
how could something so right turn out so wrong?
you're exactly where I am

the more we organize
we suck out this life that serves as the fuel behind
you wanna take the passion in my veins
and put it down in black & white

you've got your foot directly on the gas
I watch you burn out so fast
now I can see just what you've become

and how could something so right turn out so wrong?
I don't have a backup plan
this is all that I am
and how could something so right turn out so wrong?
you're exactly where I am

(one) one thousand (good) intentions
(lost) translation (lost) forever
(one) one thousand (good) intentions
(lost) translation (lost) forever
lost

and how could something so right turn out so wrong?
I don't have a backup plan
this is all that I am
and how could something so right turn out so wrong?
you're exactly where I am
where I am

Mcr rocked Werchter

poisonous_death — Fri, 09 Nov 2007 11:07:18 UT

They were so freaking awesome, but there were some downsides for me too, so here's the story:

First, there was this large sign on which kept appearing "my chemical romance autographs at 7.15 p.m, it was 6.30 by then, so I got to the line to wait for the autographing to start, and I was with the first twenty or so. Then, at 7.15, on the sign appears "my chemical romance will NOT sign", I thought I was gonna cry then.
I don't know why they didn't sign. It wasn't because they weren't there, because I saw Gerard in the StuBru-cabin giving a radio-interview, but that was done by the time they would have signed.

I got to the stage to get a good place to see Billy Talent. This was really amazing, but boy, is the singer hyperactive!!!!
Then Zornik came on. This is a group from Belgium, and I like them, but not a lot.

Then: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!!!!!!
They came on stage and I went crazy of course, but I didn't yell or scream because I wanted to save my voice to sing. Ray came on stage and it was really cute that he looked at Frank and laughed.
Then I started to cry because the moment they were on stage, I had this emotional shock because now they were real. Before they were just photographs and soundwaves, but now they were there, real flesh and blood. I suddenly realized my saviours were real, normal people, and it shocked me so hard to realize this (and because I had been waiting for this realisation for a long time) that I had to cry.
I don't even now anymore what Gerard said then or with which song they started.
These are the songs they played (in order):

- This is how I disappear
- Dead!
- I'm not ok
- Cemetery drive
- The sharpest lives
- Welcome to the Black Parade
- I don't love you
- Give' em hell, kid
- House of wolves
- Teenagers
- The jetset life is going to kill you
- You know what they do to guys like us in prison
- Mama
- Cancer
- Helena

I had to cry during cemetery drive (like most of the time)

Gerard was quite funny:
- he used his british accent "would you like to dance?"
- when the sun was coming up "hey there's the sun, there's the sun. You over
there, isn't the sun blinding you too much? Make sure you aren't burning up
there" something like that...
- he acted like a chicken
- he 'cried' after mama and said while 'crying': "I am so upset. Oh my God...
shit"
- he said "you're all cramped up in a little space. It's amazing. You're all very
intimate with eachother if you know what I mean. I want to be very intimate
with you." ----> I was dying when he said that
- he thanked the street team (although I didn't think the street team did very
much, because I'm in the street team and I was never contacted for some
action)
- he said "if someone falls down, you pick him up. No matter how much fun
you're having, if someone falls, you pick him the fuck right up, ok?"
- before "cancer" he said "all of you affected by this disease in any way, this
song is for you"

Frank was quite funny too while teenagers:
- while "they keep an eye on you son", he rubbed his eye with his
finger in a really funny way
- while "because they sleep with a gun", he held his guitar in a
way like he was going to shoot us with it, but still played it
- while "and strike a violent pose", he stuck his middle finger up and waved it
all over the place
- he chucked over the microphone with his foot and he tried to get it back up
by kicking it again, but it just got up and fell on the floor again on the other
side, but he had to sing in it, so he just got on his knees and kept playing the
guitar while he was practically with his face on the floor to sing in the
microphone

Bob did something (or at least I thought he did). He lost his sticks I think.
I saw his sticks fly out of his hand and it was right after a song, so Gerard went over to him to get a drink and Bob looked around for his sticks and when Gerard was there too he laughed at him because he lost his sticks.

After the show, the last song (helena), Bob was playing the drums and after the last notes he just let go of his drumsticks in the middle of the air and they flew against the backwall of the stage, I thought this was very cool to see

That's all I remember, if you were there and you see what I forgot, please tell me, I want this so complete as possible

When they went of the stage, I had to cry again, because I was so fucking happy. I never cried of happiness ever, but this was the first time and my friends thought I was crying because they left, but it was because I was so freaking happy.

Afterwards I wanted to buy a t-shirt, because I know they sold them, but I hadn't bought one yet. I went to the shirt stand and the shirts weren't there anymore, so I asked the guy and he told me MCR had already left and took all the shirts with them. That almost made me cry too, but I was so happy I had seen them, the feeling of crying was over soon

I enjoyed them, and I hope you do too if you get to see them

mcr concert Schaarbeek Brussels 6/11/07

poisonous_death — Fri, 09 Nov 2007 09:29:53 UT

I was so psyched about getting to see mcr again

and it was worth all the fuss

here's a report:

as far as I know, this was the playlist (in no order)

Cemetery drive
Helena
You know what they do to guys like us in prison
The end
Famous last words
The black parade
Teenagers
I don’t love you
House of wolves
The sharpest lives
Sleep
Mama
Cancer
This is how I disappear
Give ‘em hell kid
Headfirst for halos !!!!!!!!!!!
New song (stay awake ?!)
I’m not ok
Thank you for the venom
Dead!

yes indeed, you read it right, they played headfirst for halos!
Gerard said "yesterday, we played a song off bullets, and it was the highlight of the show. Do you want us to play a song from bullets?" we all screaming "yeees" he said "ok, to the older fans who know the song and to the new fans a new song"

they started the new song, called 'stay awake' although I'm not sure about that, and it was amazing! (someone recorded it, it's in my videosection)

there were some funny things going on too:

- someone threw a little bear at Gerard's feet and he was like "oooh thank you"
and he placed in on top of the drums

- Gerard saw someone in the front row with a camera with a big lense and he got
it from that person and pretented to take a pic with it and gave it back

- Gerard saw someone in the audiance holding a rose, he ordered that person to
give it to him and he put it in his mouth and walked across the stage and then
he turned away from us and when he turned back he had put the rose between
his pants and his belt

- In a certain song, Gerard stopped singing and he held the mike before Mikey
and he looked so confused because he probably didn't expect Gerard to do that
and when he understood he had to do something he just whistled in the mike
and then Gerard got it back and continued the song

- In the song "I don't love you" Gerard pointed at Mikey while singing "when you
get back, I'll be off to find another way" and then he said "get it?"

- Also in the song "I don't love you" Gerard sang "after all this blood that you still
owe, another dollar's just another blow" instead of "after all this time that you
still owe, you're still a good-for-nothing I don't know" and then he said "I really
fucked up the lyrics, didn't I?"

- I noticed Gerard didn't sing the line "I will never marry" in Cancer

- Before teenagers, someone threw a high school ID on stage and Gerard
picked it up and said "I've got someone's high school ID here. Marianne ... I've
got your high school ID, ok?" and put it in his back pocket

- at the beginning of the show, Gerard asked "what language do we speak
tonight? german? french? BONJOUR, BON JORNO, ...""how do you say 'thank
you' in your language? MERCI?"

- Gerard asked "how are you all today?" everyone screamed. Gerard said "I don't
care!" After the song, Gerard asked "how are you doing today?" and everyone
was screaming and he said "I still don't care!"

- In the song 'Mama', instead of crying at the end, Gerard said"Mama, mama, why
did you do this mama?"

- Before 'teenagers' Gerard said "this is a song about people like you!"

- Before 'give 'em hell, kid', Ray and Gerard were both talking. It was something
like this G: "you know, when you get up and you're late" R: "and it's a bad day
and it's pooring" G: "and you have to go to work and you know you're gonna get
shit from your boss""Are you our bosses? Well, are you? Fuck no, you aren't!
We have no bosses! That's the great thing about all of this"

- Gerard picked up a long black whip from the ground and said "how did you
guys manage to get this bull whip in? What is it doing here?? I'm gonna save
that for later" and he laid it down.

I noticed a boa lying on stage, but Gerard didn't touch it.

Mikey was back! And how!
I never saw him in real person before, but, god, he's smoking hot and he looks like a very nice person!
It struck me that he was looking at the audiance in a certain way. Not just look at it, but it seemed like he was really looking at the kids IN the audiance. It looked like he was seeing all these different kids instead of one mass and he looked overwhelmed by that.

I don't know what the matter was with Frank, but he just stood there the whole night, headbanging. He didn't jump around or got on his head like he used to, he just didn't leave this area of two metres from his microphone and didn't do anything silly. I thought this was weird.
Also, I don't like the fact I haven't seen Frankie's face in real life yet. I saw mcr two times now, but both of them Frank's hair was so long I couldn't see his face, what's a pity because he's very beautiful and my room is full of pictures of him.

Gerard was being silly as always On a certain moment, all the tall people in front of me weren't there anymore, so I was the tallest above some others and on this moment Gerard looked me straight in the eyes for a couple of seconds. I was so shocked that it took a couple of seconds for me to realize and then I thought 'raise your hand and wave!' but by the time that command got to my arm, Gerard looked away. Probably I just imagined this, but it would be cool if it's real.

Ray looked good I couldn't see his face very well, his fro was too long

Bob wasn't there, unfortunatly. He's got something with his arm and I really missed him, because it wasn't the same without him!

It was amazing! feel free to comment, or to send me something I forgot in here, I want it as complete as possible

fuck you

poisonous_death — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 17:15:58 UT

I wanna see what your insides look like
I bet you're not fucking pretty on the inside
I wanna see what your insides look like
And well I can explain what happened to my face
late last night
it drowned in tears
'cause you're such a fucking asshole

I hate you liar cheater

What I feel like right now

poisonous_death — Sun, 23 Sep 2007 17:35:00 UT

Fuck it all
Fuck this world
Fuck everything that you stand for
Don't deny
Don't exist
Don't give a shit
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME

Drowning lessons

poisonous_death — Thu, 26 Apr 2007 19:22:01 UT

A part from a very good song by My Chemical Romance:

Without a sound I took her down
and dressed in red and blue I squeezed
Imaginary wedding gown
that you can't wear in front of me
A kiss goodbye
your twisted shell
as ricegrains and roses fall at your feet
Let's say goodbye
the hundred time
and then tomorrow we'll do it again
I dragged her down. I put her out
and back there I left here where no one could see
And lifeless cold into this well
I stared as this moment was held for me