Blog van matthias van lancker

pushing

EviLRiPzOR — Wed, 13 May 2009 20:19:15 UT

The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
Everything has to end, you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you

me as apart of live

EviLRiPzOR — Wed, 13 May 2009 20:15:21 UT

Ik ben volmaakt gelukkig, ik voel me magisch, maar toch redelijk ziek, verteerd door levenstwijfel en doodsverachting (omdat ik graag leef).
Deze combinatie is zeer goed mogelijk voor wie een krachtige geest bezit; voor wie wil vechten tot het bittere eind, en zo ironisch en sarcastisch ( en vleugje cynistisch) is als ik weet niet wat.
Voor de rest blijft het aanmodderen, uitkijken vanwaar de wind waait en ervoor zorgen dat je van ellende niet omvalt.
Als dat laatse gebeurt, dan moet je het relativeren en weer overeind klauteren. Zo eenvoudig is alles.
Dat wil zeggen: als de omstandigheden meezitten en het toelaten.

**under construction**

divide

EviLRiPzOR — Wed, 13 May 2009 20:05:56 UT

I want to tear a big hole in what is to be,
To end all this infatuation with unity,
I'm seeking my salvation alone again,

I never needed to be one of you anyway
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you

We're not the same
My own individuality is so unique,
I'm one impressive motherf**ker
Now, wouldn't you say

Break apart and Divide Divide Divide Divide
You might say that I'm the last man standing now,

Though you'll try, you'll never find a way to break me
You might say that I'm sick of being lost in the crowd,
but I am a little more provocative then you might be,
It's your shock and then your horror on which I feed
So can you tell me what exactly does freedom mean,
If I'm not free to be as twisted as I wanna be

perhaps

EviLRiPzOR — Wed, 13 May 2009 20:00:15 UT

Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict, full of pain
Like a fire when it's cold outside
Or thunder when it rains

If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you

And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go

And some say love is everything
Some say they don't know

part of me

EviLRiPzOR — Wed, 13 May 2009 19:36:26 UT

You 've become a part of me
You 'll always be right here

Everything comes down to memories of you
and I ' am lost inside these thoughts of you
so
I've given up a part of me
I've let myself become you

it's true

EviLRiPzOR — Wed, 13 May 2009 19:31:05 UT

You said times with me were lots of fun
But now funny just ain’t what you want
Yeah my girl, ain’t that just a little strange
There were times you’d rather die than leave
Now you say: hold on a second here

Better times are moving up ahead
And all sorrow is gone for good
Hey my girl, why don’t you just let it flow

All this time I tried to figure out
Just what it takes to live on your cloud
yeah my baby, I guess I misunderstood
When you said; just hold on a second here

If sadness is a color, than it’s blue just like your eyes
And sorrow can be all over you but it will never tear me down