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Even true friendship knows his end .

SayHelloToMyFists — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 12:38:20 UT

When we were little we weren’t used to think about what will happen .
We were just so young we didn’t had a clue ,
no one ever thought about what they were planning to do .
We were running around like chickens with no head ,
just happy ,but we hadn’t seen anything yet .
We had our shit back home .But no one ever felt left alone .
We were there for each other ,and got each other’s backs .
But we never thought that it all could change like that .
Everything vanished in to thin air .No one and nothing to share .
Is this how we wanted it to end ?Or was it all just pretend ?
I think we just walked to a dead end .Everyone grew up ,to what they have become now and are trying to become that person that they aspire to be .
So many years passed by and no one could stop for just one second to just look and see think and feel free ,and go back to the past .
When it all seemed so wonderful and easy to go through and that everything including are friendship could seemed to last .
But we were to naïve we were so foolish to think that we would all stick together .
Is this what we used to call forever ?
Am I just the only one who thinks about my youth ?
And where are now all my so called friends that used to live in my neighborhood?
We grew apart
And lived along in each other’s heart
But as we look back
We see the shades of the lights that cleared our path
Back in the past .
We live along
With no start to thinking where we belong
But If ever anyone of us feels left alone
Just think about the time and the place what we used to call our home .

I just can't do without you .

SayHelloToMyFists — Thu, 13 Aug 2009 11:47:04 UT

I'm contimplating phrases
As I'm staring to those happy faces
Now that I'm alone
I feel like a child searching for a home
Everywhere I go, I hear and see your name
Just missing you
Don't know what to do

You're so important to me
I just can't do without you
My love for someone never felt so true
You're my future and my past
I wish you were my first and we met long before
But you're surely my last
You got me in the palm of your hand
And at first I couldn't understand
But now it's crystal clear
You're the cure against the pain and fear

I hate those lonely nights
I hope you could come and make it right
And now I'm having this single fight
Trying to fall asleep every single night
I just want you by my side
I'm sorry that I'm not a shining armor knight
But I'm trying to make all your dreams come true
That's what I do

You're so important to me
I just can't do without you
My love for someone never felt so true
You're my future and my past
I wish you were my first and we met long before
But you're surely my last
You got me in the palm of your hand
And at first I couldn't understand
But now it's crystal clear
You're the cure against the pain and fear

After I've forced my eyes to close
Even then I see you
What do you see with your eyes closed honey?
Can't rest without you in my arms
You're so close in mind, but so far away
Do you think about me like I think about you everyday?

You're so important to me
I just can't do without you
My love for someone never felt so true
You're my future and my past
I wish you were my first and we met long before
But you're surely my last
You got me in the palm of your hand
And at first I couldn't understand
But now it's crystal clear
You're the cure against the pain and fear

And now I realise how the pieces seem to fit
You're the only girl I want to spend my life with
My desire for you, I need to keep it in control
Now I'm just holding on
And once upon a time seems so like a child's fairytale
But I guess for us it's true
Oh darling I love you !
And this tale will never stop being told
You mean the world to me

Somewhere , Somehow ,everything has changed

SayHelloToMyFists — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 19:05:22 UT

I must have seen it comin'
The end of all this .
Somehow it happend .
And I still don't know fo' sure oh just
why?
I guess I just wasn't good enough .
Somewhere in my mind
you're still there .
And I can't forget 'cause you know
we've been through so much oh yes
you and me together .
And all this shit hurts twice as much
'cause I never saw it comin'
I was not prepared .
'cause you said we were Forever .
I know it was true and you meant it when you said it .
I know for damn sure that it was true .
I guess I'll never be good enough for you .
seems that people can change .
remember when you said that
that's all just a fairytale .
But we've lost touch , we 've lost our friendschip
And somewhere ,Somehow everything has changed .
And I see you slowly fading away ,I can't bare the sight .
'cause you said we were forever .
But maybe one day , one day we'll find it again .
And know fo' damn sure that
'till than truely you'll always have my support
in my heart .
You'll always be , in my heart oh girl
You 'll always be.
in my heart
My HEART .

Isabelle ! <3

Not anymore what we used to be

SayHelloToMyFists — Sat, 16 May 2009 15:59:31 UT

The things we used to see in each other and used to say
are just a glimp in our memory
we're so sclose to each other , but still so far away
we are not anymore what we used to be .

I'm not saying that we're through
and I'm not saying that I'm leaving you
but I've just got no clue
what I have to do,
I'd like to say that I love you
And I swear what I say it's true
I never wanna lose you

We used to think we were forever
and that we were ment to be
do you still remember
and I'm not saying it's the end between you and me
but we are just farther than ever !

I'm not saying that we're through
and I'm not saying that I'm leaving you
but I've just got no clue
what I have to do
I'd like to say that I love you
and I swear what I say it's true
I never wanna lose you

We are not anymore what we used to be
not anymore what we used to be
picture perfect love only exists in fantasy
but I don't need that , only reality
where I've got your name burned in my memory

And my thoughts of you are still the same
I proudly bear your name
I hate it when we fight
I love it when you hold me tight
and maybe we're just afraid
of losing each other because of all the faults we've made

But we're just farther than ever ..
And i'm going to do everything to make it better

I'd like to say that I love you
and I swear what I say it's true
I never wanna lose you

I never wanna Lose you!

This band that bounds our lives

SayHelloToMyFists — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 10:44:50 UT

I already said it for a thousand times.
This band we have that bounds our lives.
Isn't something that's easy to break.
My love for you ,I swear It's Not fake.
You're the glimmer of hope in my eyes.
And each sunrise.
I know why,this love will never die.And tears that fall from the sky
will wash ayway the past .I'll be free at last .
I'm here ,
I'll let go the fear
catch every single tear
and make you clear .
You're not alone ,I'll fight for you with flesh and bone .
No one will do you any harm.
If you ever fall I'll grab you by your arm .
I'll make sure you're alright ,every single day and night .
I'm here for you ,I'm here to stay .
I promise I'll never walk away .
'cause this love between you and me ,is ment to be

I never wanna say goodbye to you.

SayHelloToMyFists — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 23:13:51 UT

No matter how fast the time will go
and how slow the past will fade away
No matter how soon we have to call today ,yesterday .
When I think about tomorrow ...
It's just another day like each and other day
that I can love you, that I can say your mine .
that I can think now ,everything's just fine
but I hope time will not go that fast
'cause otherwise this all
will soon be past .
But I know for now that everything's just fine
oh i wish there was just one way to hold up time .
'cause i never wanna say goodbye to you!

Forever.

SayHelloToMyFists — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 23:07:29 UT

when you look at me ,
you see something that others can't see .
And I can always count on you
no matter what I do
you're still here
and the thought that I can lose you any single day
is almost the only thing that I fear .
You're everything to me !
can't you see ? ..
I cannot live without you
cannot breath without you
eat without you
or sleep without you .
I just can't make it through

I swear and believe me baby when I say
I love you truely with all the pieces of my tiny heart .
I did it from the first moment ,the beginning ,the start
I always did an I always will.
You know I loved you even way back ,long before we even kissed or something .
Baby keep this in mind , you're my everything .
Without you there's no meaning in this life
I need you
and I always will
'cause without you I just can't survive .

oh girl I love you
my gorgeous ,pretty angel .
♥ ♥ ♥
forever ! ♥

The Love That runs through my veins

SayHelloToMyFists — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 18:25:53 UT

And I will love you
And I will care for you
And i will hold
your head above
the waves that hope
to swallow and
drag you down.
I see fear
in your eyes
yet they still shine
with passion of
an indescribable kind
like a blanket of stars
in a moonless sky
as the world
continues to hold us
against this endless horizon
in this lonely sea
you and i
knew for the first time
what it meant
to be together
and still remain alone
but at least we know what it’s like to be loved
When we lived our live and we’re old and we’ve had enough
We could die like this
in each others arms alone
miles and miles far
from what we call our home
but this ending is beautiful
our hearts could beat as one
as we close our eyes
for the final time
goodbye faith
goodbye fear
nothing can never
take this from us This love that runs through my veins
The love for you .It will last forever !

READ THESE WORDS

SayHelloToMyFists — Sun, 15 Feb 2009 23:47:00 UT

Dream by dream
you took them slow
everything I once had
is now gone for good.
I search for hope
I remember it
when you said
that'ssomething i'll never find
But at least I know the difference
between wrong and right .
READ THESE WORDS
THAT I JUST WROTE .
so that you you know
and I can show
that you're nothingless
than a shade
past and cold
Everything is your fucking fault !
I left the thoughts of you
far away behind
And I tell you know
the point of this writing shit .
my story
past and cold
done and yet , Untold .
I seak for something
and I know for sure
I will find what I am looking for .
So hold your tongue and save you breath
'cause you're only out for destruction .
SO READ THESE WORDS
THAT I JUST WROTE
so that you know
and I can show
That you just can't win
you're nothingless
than a shade from yesterday
past and cold .
And everything is your fucking fault !

No hope left .

SayHelloToMyFists — Sun, 25 Jan 2009 22:10:54 UT

Say what you have to say .
when there's no hope left ,
but don't say you never left me
and you're here for me .
now nothing remains .
can you feel the distance ? ..
If you're not planning to stay .
help me carry the pain
and take the troubles from my hands .
before you shut the door .
like I said , no hope left
only pain marks in my chest .
remains

What's done is done

SayHelloToMyFists — Thu, 15 Jan 2009 23:15:53 UT

For too long I lived in darkness
Drowning in the misery
Created by others
And I who had to clean it up .
My head was just fucked up inside
And I would be lying if i say
Not anymore .
My life was based on my dreams
Fed up with lies .
But maybe I just thought
My dreams were more interesting than reality .

But I’ve learned my lesson .
Through these rough years
Through all the years
When I kept telling myself
I was the one who’s called guilty
I was the one to blaim
For all the shit that happened .
For all the people who laid me down .
And all those who died or disappeared
Without even saying goodbye.
they’ve come and go
It’s seems so fuckin’ long ago .

I went through everyday .
With no thought to the future,
There was no end to the fuckin’ pain .
Maybe my fears took over me .
But I’ve waited All this time
Waiting for someone who told me I was strong.
And told me the diffderence between right and wrong .
And all the lies , trapped deep inside
Became to hard to bear the weight .
I gained some strenght through time .
And I stand on my own .
I see the lies in conversations .
While I see people trying to fight the truth
with their own motherfuckin’ eyes .
‘cause they know in their heart .
They know the goddamn truth .

And just for now .
I try to rest , I try to live my life as good as I can .
But
Give me a reason to believe this life is more than what it seems
Give me one goddamn reason .
That I’m not living my life in lies .
‘cause for the time that’s left for me
I don’t wan’t to mess it up
‘cause we’ve just got one life

And now I’ve just tried to erase some bad memories
Try to live my life , like it is now
I know that for the first time ,
I’m happy
So I know
The reason to believe that this life is more than what it seems
Is she .
And nothing’s gonna change
My feelings
my point of vue
My pride
And my believes .
Remember me
As how I am
Keep my footprints
As I leave ..
As I say my past goodbye .

I knew I loved you <3

SayHelloToMyFists — Wed, 07 Jan 2009 22:38:24 UT

From the first time I saw you
I ‘ve always thought you were beautiful
The second time I saw your pretty face
I knew that I liked u .
From The first time we ever had a serious conversation
I knew that I loved you .
And each day afterwards it became harder to face you
But even harder ,not being with you .
I’ve waited all these months
There was not a single day I did not think of you .
And I ‘m glad I did .
‘Cause
I’ve never been so happy in my fuckin’ entire life
Than now ,i’m with you
You're just , the only one for me
You're here inside
Inside my heart
Your name is carved forever in my heart
One love
Forever.
Something that even god or anybody there up above
Never will understand .

I love you so much!

SayHelloToMyFists — Wed, 07 Jan 2009 22:23:42 UT

Baby you're everything to me .<3
And know ,I'd do anything to show you
what your love is worth.
And if you're in trouble and
if you need me I'll be there
and It's not always easy, but I'm here fo you forever
I'm never gonna let you go ! just so you know.<3
you're my pretty daydream .
And what I feel for you is forever and ever
Never wanna lose you , and I mean never!
I love you darling.

everything comes to an end

SayHelloToMyFists — Wed, 07 Jan 2009 22:16:32 UT

It’s sad to now that the rain couldn’t stop the fire
That the wind couldn’t stop the black clouds from comming
Thunderflashes lightning up the sky .
It’s like firework with newyear
It’s like the tiny lightballs in the christmastree
Some things are gone or shall be gone
It’s ment to be,everything eventually comes to an end
School , sports , hobby’s
Releationships .
Lifes of innocent people
And the World .
Things you don’t wan’t to end ends
But things you wanna end
Like wars ,all the fucking problems ,
Those who every day come back and beat you up inside your head .
It’s like a thousand bees stinging in your head .
A car who drives ten times over you.
That’s pain , that never stops,it’s a scar for the rest of your life .
They remind you of all the stupid , sad and painfull moments of your life.

Kzal er altyd voor je zijn !

SayHelloToMyFists — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 13:39:02 UT

jana ,zus !<3

Weet dak niet zonder jou kan,
En altyd van je houden zal .
Ik zal jou steunen in goede en slechte tyden ,
Kzal alles voor jou doen ,zolang ik jou maar niet zie lyden.
Want meestal zeg je het niet of zeg je er is niets .
Als ik in je ogen kijk zie ik ,er is wel degelijk iets.
En daar kan ik dan echt niet tegen .
En kwil jou dan alles geven ,ALLES voor een beter leven .
Ik zal mee vechten tegen die pijn .
En ik beloof je...ooit , Ooit zusje , Zal het allemaal anders ZIJN!

Sorry .

SayHelloToMyFists — Thu, 04 Dec 2008 11:53:31 UT

Sorry for the times I didn't realize
that holding back my feelings
brings tears to your eyes .
sorry for the time I did not understand
how you would feel when I act like that
Just wanna say sorry
A simple word that you deserve
I say this now
'cause I need you in my life
I really do
oh GIrl I love you !!

why ?

SayHelloToMyFists — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 10:40:37 UT

who ever lost a dear friend
should know how i feel
losing a friend ,who planned his end
and you didn't know .
why he/ she did it
why he/ she left this world so suddenly .
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

All these years gone by
And Still I haven't figured out Why ?
Why you?What were you planning to do ?
You broke my heart by doing that .
You stabbed me with a knife right in the back .
But why ? why did you ?
I remember that day , like it was yesterday
you closed your eyes and left this cruel world
without telling me a single word .
And still I ask myself why?
I was so blind ,I did not see
The things that you were hiding for me
With your last breath You took it all away
And told me to stay
But why ? Why did you?
You know that place were we once went
We wrote our names on that wall and you told me I was your best friend .
I Thought our names would last forever , 'cause you said this band is for eternity
I never Thought it could all change That suddenly .
Thanks too you I was with hope refilled
But I guess I was wrong 'cause now ,i'm cursed with guilt .
Still Wondering why ? Why did you do that ?
Why did you destroyed everything we had ?
I miss you , Yes I do
And yes I still remember that day when you said everything goodbye
But still I'm wondering Why ?

Those three simple words .

SayHelloToMyFists — Fri, 28 Nov 2008 13:23:41 UT

So many nights I just stared at the window
without knowing where to go
the door closed behind my back
just thinking about things
without knowing about what.
so many things and dreams and wishes
I had to hide
many things left deep inside
I suppose I was just waiting
waiting for someone or something
who gives me the strength to hold on.
but you came along
and you give me the hope to carry on .
You light up my days , my life and my heart
I want you to know how much I care for you
but I don't know where to start
maybe the best I can do
is starting with those three simple words
saying that I LOVE YOU

13.10.2008 ! <3

(L)!!

SayHelloToMyFists — Thu, 23 Oct 2008 18:03:42 UT

She may be the love that can and hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I remember till the day I die
She May be the reason I survive
The why and where for I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough and rainy years
Me I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I got to be
The meaning of my life is
She,!

Not who I thought you'd be

SayHelloToMyFists — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 16:30:22 UT

Couldn't see through your shallowness
Blinded by the fog in my head
I've made my mistakes,
Man enough to admit them

Sharp pain in my back
Friends turn to foes
Lovers to shades
You want to talk?
I'm done talking

Shallow friends,
Hollow lies
Pretent
And a dose of cold metal in my back

Pull the knife out
Blood pours from me,
past my arms,
to my hands
and to the floor

I've been played the fool
Friends? Friends don't betray each other
Take away the shades of yesterday
My business is my business,
Back the fuck off

Poisoned,dying on the inside
Slowly, fading
Cold, all around
Shades of what I used to have,
and was..

Lifelong fight

SayHelloToMyFists — Wed, 28 May 2008 19:00:18 UT

Look at what you did
You really don't give a shit
You poisend my mind
and now I'm just fucked up inside
I locked It all up
But Now It finally has to stop
'cause

I've made a promise for godsake
I made a promise that I can't break
I'll stop pretending what and how I am
and forget all these painful memories , 'cause I'm not scared of them
So I'll do my best
to rebuild what's left
To clear my mind ,change my sight
and win this Lifelong fight !

No matter what you say
I'll just go ahead , and hope some will pray
you will never break me down again
you can try and try but you will never win again
You see I'm older and i'm stronger
And I don't believe in happy endings
But I have to lose all these shitty feelings
'cause

I've made a promise for godsake
I made a promise that I can't break
I'll stop pretending what and how I am
and forget all these painful memories , 'cause I'm not scared of them
So I'll do my best
to rebuild what's left
To clear my mind ,change my sight
and win this Lifelong fight !

There were moments when I thought this never ends
And I thought of suicide
but how selfish would I be If I just died
I have to find the strenght indside
and push all these thoughts aside
I can decide my own destiny , it's my choice
I need to block the sound of this fucking voice
That one I hear inside my head
And just act on my own , and think for myself instead
'cause

I've made a promise for godsake
I made a promise that I can't break
I'll stop pretending what and how I am
and forget all these painful memories , 'cause I'm not scared of them
So I'll do my best
to rebuild what's left
To clear my mind ,change my sight
and win this Lifelong fight !

so it's time to close the door behind
and to clear my poisend mind
from the thoughts I held so tight
Never be scared again , so I don't need to hide
I'll lock my fears forever and Let go these things inside
Nomore I'll lose this lifelong fght!
'cause

I've made a promise
I've made a promise
I will win this fucking fight !

Thanks to you .

SayHelloToMyFists — Sat, 26 Apr 2008 16:00:29 UT

I'm obvious , I'm vulnerable , crude and miserable.
I find my comfort in my tragedy , I'm overcome by agony .
That's all what you ever wanted me to be
But I hope you'll die in misery .
I always asked myself, do you love me , do you care , well fuck you
I hate you , life isn't fair .
You're just someone I never knew , who never was around me
to see the shit I was going through.
And trying to say you're sorry
isn't gonna work .
Can't ease the memories .
I'll never forgive , I'll never forget .
all this crappy shit you did and said .
look at what you did to me
You're just so fucking victimy
'cause you never gave a shit for me .
You left me in pain
so you're the one supposed to blame

F*cking bitches .

SayHelloToMyFists — Thu, 17 Apr 2008 14:28:27 UT

Disloyalty and dishonesty , that's all what I can see .
That's all what you people seem to know . Everything you people say is just for show .
You call people your friend and you talk bad behind their back .You all pretend to get along It's all a goddamn act.
You people are so quick to judge someone you meet .You all take advantage of others to satisfy your greed .
How can you people be so disrespectful?. After all you've said and done .
When will you learn to face up your mistake? 'Cause everyone can already see that you're all just fake .
Do you still believe your lies ? I wouldn't mind if someone of you all just dies .
'Cause I need no friends like you guys .
And because of you fools , I hate this motherfucking school
Whole your life they try to teach you right from wrong and when will you people finally know where you all belong !?
Still don't know your place ?
Well I'll help you clear the case !
With the trash that's the place where you all belong!
Your best friend is actually a goddamn gossip paper and your motherfucking phone .
And if hard times knock on the door , and you're all in trouble ... well don't count on me !
'Cause all your actions are your own responsibility !
You're all just fake ass wannabees .!

Dom I know , mja xd Invullen die handel .

SayHelloToMyFists — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 16:48:09 UT

1. Wie ben je?
2. Zijn we vrienden?
3. Hoe ken je mij, en sinds wanneer?
4. Heb ik een invloed op je? Zo ja, een goede of een slechte?
5. Wat vind je van mij?
6. Wat is de leukste herinnering die je hebt van mij?
7. Hoe lang zullen we vrienden zijn?
8. Hou je van mij?
9. Ben je verliefd op mij?
10. Zou je me zoenen?
11. Zou je mij knuffelen?
12. Wat valt er op aan mij (uiterlijk)?
13. Wat valt er op aan mij (innerlijk)?
14. Wou je dat ik cooler was?
15. Geef je score op 10 over mij?
16. Geef mij een bijnaam, waarom heb je die gekozen?
17. Ben ik lief?
18. Hoe lang ken je me al?
19. Beschrijf mij in een woord.
20. Wat was je eerste indruk?
21. Denk je nog steeds zo over mij?
22. Wat is mijn zwak punt?
23. Zal ik later trouwen?
24. Wat maakt mij gelukkig?
25. Wat maakt mij ongelukkig?
26. Als je aan mij denkt dan denk je aan..?
27. Welk liedje doet er jou aan my denken?
28. Als je me iets zou kunnen geven, wat zou dat zijn?
29. Hoe goed ken je mij?
30. Wanneer hebben we het laatst elkaar gezien?
31. Heb je me ooit iets willen zeggen, maar kon je het niet?
32. Zou ik iemand vermoorden?
33. Hebben we ooit al seks gehad?
34. Mis je mij?
35. Mis ik jou?
36. Ga je dit op je eigen blog zetten, zodat je kan zien wat ik van je denk?